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I woke up feeling numb or maybe i just wanted to feel like that. Here comes morning again and so the feeling that comes with it. I really miss my baby that it hurts me to the core😥. I always remember her face thinking what would she look like when her eyes are open, i wonder what would be the sound of her voice when she cries or when she laughs, i always imagined her in my arms cuddling her. When I’m in bed i imagined her lying beside me looking at me smiling. I want my baby back!!!

My emotions were ups and downs. Some days i feel okay but most of the time I was not, and today is not an exemption. Maybe it’s because abby would have been a month old 3 days from now so I was very emotional.

I missed her so bad I wanted to get her out of her grave and just hold her and kiss her. I always wished that I should have been with her. That she should have not left me alone because yeah i’m alive but my life’s been miserable now without her.😥

My life is a complete mess.