random thoughts

It will get better in time. That’s what they’ve been telling me. It’s been 2 months since my baby was born sleeping. Is it really getting better as time passed by? Definitely NO, not a bit. Right know as I am typing these, I just had a meltdown. The stress, anxiety, depression and trauma became overwhelming that I just wanted to end it all. I just wanted to disappear even for a while. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. Is it worth living in this lonely world? They say life begins at 40…so this is how my life begins?..lonely, depressed, anxious, hopeless, unmotivated, alone, miserable. My life doesn’t begin at 40, the truth is, my life ended last May 3…I’m just here in this world breathing, existing but not living.